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Benny
Russell's hands were shaking slightly as he put on his shoes. He took a deep
breath and deliberately focused his attention on the ray of sunlight slanting
through the apartment window, on the motes of dust that floated just above the
bare wood floor. It did no good to dwell on the rapid deterioration of his
once-strong body over the past few years, since the doctors, convinced of his
return to sanity by his willingness to destroy his subversive manuscript, had
released him from the mental hospital. Perhaps the drugs were the cause of his
tremors and twitching, or the electroshock treatments -- he had no way of
knowing which. Under the circumstances, he supposed that he probably ought to
count himself lucky he hadn't been lobotomized.
He had
eventually found a job after his release, working as a night-shift janitor at
an assembly plant, where his black skin and his awkward, palsied gait would be
less likely to offend anyone. If the authorities ever decided to check up on
him, they would surely be satisfied with his new acceptance of reality.
Even his
typewriter was gone: stolen while he was in the hospital, according to Cassie,
but her contradictory and implausible explanations of the supposed theft had
made it obvious that she had disposed of the typewriter herself. For his own
good, of course. He had made no attempt to confront her about it, not even
mentioning the typewriter again. After all, she was probably right. When he
began the night-shift job, avoiding Cassie became easier, and after a while he
stopped seeing her entirely. No doubt she would have a much better life
without him.
But his
writing could not be so easily set aside. The story was still there, every
word burned indelibly into his brain, crying out for release. No one would
want to read it, he knew. No publisher would consider printing a story about a
space station under the command of a Negro. It was even more preposterous to
suggest that Captain Sisko came from a future in which the very concept of a
"Negro," of the division of humanity along racial lines, did not
exist.
He could
not get it out of his mind. One morning, he took the bus across town and
volunteered to work part-time for a branch office of a charitable
organization. The director, Mrs. Alcott, was a fair-haired and slightly plump
society matron who wore immaculately tailored suits. She seemed to spend most
of her time on the telephone, talking earnestly to donors about ending hunger
in America forever. She spent much less time
at her typewriter and had no objection to allowing Benny Russell to use it for
an hour or two each day.
Slowly, bit
by bit, he reconstructed the manuscript that he had destroyed in the hospital.
This time, he decided to try mailing it to Canadian publishers, in the hope that
they would be more tolerant -- that they would be capable of understanding his
vision. Even so, he knew it was realistic to expect a long round of rejection
slips. He could not have been more surprised when, almost at once, an editor
called with an offer to buy the story.
He glanced
at himself in the mirror before he left his apartment. The old suit hung
loosely on his gaunt body, but at least he had managed to get his tie neatly
knotted, a task that had become somewhat difficult of late. He would be
meeting the editor, who often traveled to New York on business, at Mrs. Alcott's office; she had graciously offered the
use of a conference room. A favor, he suspected, that would not have been
forthcoming if she had known the contents of his manuscript. He had told her
only that it was science fiction.
The editor
arrived precisely at the scheduled meeting time, eleven o'clock, just as the bells of the church next door were beginning
to strike the hour.
"I'm
Jonathan Archer." Entering the room, the Canadian editor gave Russell a
firm handshake before he sat down at the conference table and took some
documents from his briefcase.
"After
reading your manuscript, I'm very impressed with the caliber of your
work," Archer continued. "You have a crisp narrative style, an
imaginative plot, and a professional's attention to detail. I don't expect
much revision will be necessary. Of course, there will have to be a change to
your description of Captain Sisko. Although our Canadian readers might not
object to his being a Negro, we do have to consider the effect on our U.S. sales, after all. I'm sure you understand."
Russell
stared down at the gleaming surface of the table that he had so carefully
polished the day before. It reflected his face perfectly, even to the small
twitch at the corner of his left eye. His hands began to shake more
violently. Not again, he thought. This can't be happening again. It's just
not right.
He did not
realize that he had spoken aloud until the editor began to answer.
"There's
a fine line between doing what I think is right," Archer informed him,
"and interfering with the affairs of others. I'm here to sell science
fiction to the Americans, not tell them what to do."
"But
some of the people who buy your books and magazines are Negroes."
"Selling
them books is a lot different than suggesting they defy their culture,"
Archer declared.
Russell's
voice was raw, anguished. "I should have the same rights as you do."
"It's
not my place to decide what rights you should have. I'm sorry."
A silence
stretched between them. Archer took a pen from his briefcase and fidgeted with
it for a moment before he spoke again.
"There's
a fellow who works for my company. Trip, he's called. He lived in the
American South for a few years when he was younger. Well-meaning, but naïve
and impulsive. He foolishly took it upon himself to teach a colored housemaid
to read, even giving her books on geography and other sciences. Never
considered what the consequences might be. As it turned out, she killed
herself when she realized how much she would never be able to do. A very
unfortunate incident, and not just for her. She'd been employed by a young
couple who were planning to start a family, and they had to postpone their
plans until they could find another suitable servant."
Archer set
the pen down in front of Russell with a clatter as he continued, "I'm sure
Trip thought he was doing the right thing. I might agree, if he'd been in Toronto or Vancouver."
The
contract slid across the table, following the pen. Russell tried to focus on
it, but the words kept blurring before his eyes. At least the story would be
published, he thought, instead of moldering in a desk drawer. He brushed the
back of his hand across his eyes, almost restoring his vision to clarity, and
reached for the pen. At least the world would know most of the truth of Deep
Space Nine. And his view of Captain Sisko would never change in his own mind.
His
signature was an unrecognizable blur. Archer took the contract and produced a
check from the briefcase. The small, accusing rectangle sat there on the
perfectly polished wood. It took three tries before Russell was able to pick
it up. By then, Archer had already left.
Russell
turned the check over and endorsed it, his signature a bit more legible this
time, before he crossed the hall and found Mrs. Alcott at her desk. She had
just finished a telephone call and was sipping her coffee.
"I'm
sorry, ma'am, I don't think I'll be able to work here any more. My health just
isn't what it used to be." He dropped the check on her desk, right next
to the coffee cup, and had already walked out the door before she discovered
what it was.
A moment
later, she came fluttering outside after him, thanking him for his generosity.
His cane rang against the sidewalk in hard counterpoint to her words. This
gift would do so much, she assured him, to help the starving children of America's inner cities.
He tried
not to think about how many of them would be better off dead.